KASHISH

The most hectic part of the study is exams. Whenever the clouds of exams come over me, tension starts raining on my fucking head. My exams are going to commence in the next 2 weeks and this is quite depressing for me.

Well, I'm good at studying, but I don't know why I get nervous during exam season. I'm absorbing the syllabus through three different books as I want to perform tremendously in my exams.

"Kashish, have you solved these questions? She asked, "My brain cells have been destroyed while solving this fucking exercise", frustration dripping from her words. Riya and medical physiology don't have a good bond. "Yeah, wait, I had solved it", I said while rolling my eyes over her.

"Where did I keep my register?" I murmured while searching for my register. I think I badly need to take four almonds every day to keep my memory sharp. "Wait, I think I placed it on my desk", She blinked her eyes, and I got down from my bed and started searching for it. I have some serious work in my hand and exam pressure in my mind and I don't know when my attention suddenly shifted to Vikrant.

"I never saw a flirty guy like him, seriously, how can he ask for the date so early?" I whispered while narrowing my eyes in annoyance. I cursed him for gathering all my attention but the worst part is that his manipulated words are becoming successful in distracting me. I'm getting annoyed while thinking about him. "Did you find it, Kashish?" Riya screamed from behind.

Her croaky voice suddenly broke my delusion. "Don't shout, I get it", I grunted while my back is still facing her face. "Here, take it", I chuckled and she glared at me. Why does she behave like only she has the pressure of exams? I still stand near the bed and continuously stare at her while bending my hands. "Riya, do you know about Vikrant"?

"Vikrant Karmarkar!!", she glared at me. "You're too patience", she giggled, making me sighed. "Yeah, I know him very well, he is the most fling guy I have ever seen in my entire life", she slammed at him. It seems like he doesn't have a good image among the girls. I sat beside her, "But he said", she cut me off, "Whatever he said, don't fall for his trap", she pinned her eyes to me. "Why do you ask about him?"

"I just want to know whether he's a nice guy or not", I started flickering my eyes. "He is a good-looking man, and aside from his flinging nature, he is a college topper", she explained while my glares paused at her. "And you know that most of his family members served in the Indian army", she chuckled.

"Really!!"

"His father, Digvijay Karmarkar, who often attends events in our college, is a colonel in the Indian army", she said, and I sighed. So his family has hard-core soldiers-well, it is so obvious. I mean, this is an army medical college, and it is quite understandable that every student studying here are belongs to well-known army families.

"He has an elder brother who may be a major in the Indian army", she said with the brightest smile she could have. "What's wrong with you, bitch? Why are you smiling like an idiot?" I peered at her. "He visited our college six months ago, and I don't know why the hell I was absent that day", she suddenly wailed while leaning her head on my shoulder. She is so fucking dramatic.

"Could you please stop this nonsense?" I said it with disgust and she pinned her glares at me. "You're such a heartless friend, don't you feel pity for me?" she said while shedding fake tears. This girl will surely drive me crazy with her dramas. "But why do I feel pity for you?"

"I missed the chance to see his major brother", she cried. "What's the big deal if you missed the chance? I slammed at her. "You're behaving like as you missed the chance to meet your prince charming," I said while she paused her glares at me. "He is more than my prince charming, do you have any idea how handsome and dashing a soldier he is?" she revealed about him.

How would I know that he is damn handsome and dashing as well? My point is how she could fall for a guy she had never seen. "How can you be so sure that he is handsome by hearing random rumours about him?" I said in irritation. "You can ask any girl in college about him", she mimicked while answering my irritated gaze.

"I wish he fell in love with me or I could have a chance to propose to him", she giggled. Her delusions are horrible. "But don't you think he is a little bit older than you? My stinging words instantly dropped her bright smile. "You're right, what if he has a girlfriend or may be a wife? If this will true, my heart will surely be broken", she cried.

"Don't think about him, he is not worth it", I scolded her while she rolled up her angry eyes over me.

"One day you will crave for him too", I let out my laugh. "Do you really think I'll crave for him?" I giggled while she blinked her eyes. "I only wanted to meet the soldier who saved my life in Delhi, if I ever get a chance", I replied. I was so stupid to understand that we were both talking about the same soldier.

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I have never thought that I would date anyone early but I said yes to Vikrant. "I have been liked you since the first day we met", I blinked my eyes while he was sitting in front of me. It's been hard and awkward to date a senior cadet who is about to leave college as he is studying for his final year. "Can we get a chance to know each other"? He chuckled.

If Riya finds out than she will definitely break my neck, that despite her warnings I still sat beside him.

Her delusions are filled with his handsome brother and she doesn't like Vikrant. "I heard that you are the biggest womaniser, don't you?" I pinned my eyeballs to him. He makes sighs, "look, people like to talk shit behind your back and that doesn't mean you are like that", He was defended himself.

"I had my past relationships, but they all broke up mutually, I didn't dump any girl just to grab another one", He was offended and I could see this on his handsome face. "Ok, we can date and know each other", I chuckled. I liked him so I thought that he would deserve the chance. I never judge a book by its review and cover, i believed to read the book first and formed opinions.

"Can I ask you something"? He comes closer to the table while leaning his face forward. A message popped up on my phone, and it was riya. I want to ignore the message, but I can't as she is my best friend message.

"Excuse me", I said while gripped my phone and opened the message. "Where are you, bitch? She threatens me. She is not feeling well, as she has fever for some days. "I'll be there soon, honey", I replied and sent it.

"Yes, what do you want to ask?"

"Have you ever had any relationships?" he paused as my astonished glares stuck on him. "Don't get me wrong, it's just a general question and if you mind than you feel free to ignore my question", he chuckled. Being a medical student, I never had enough time to think about any relationships or dates. "Nope, I never had", I denied while he was sipping his coffee.

"Hmm, impressive", he chuckled and I nodded. I gulped the left-over coffee in one shot. "I need to go as my best friend is not well", I grabbed my bag and stood up. "Wait," I turned my heels while he was still sitting on the chair.

"Is there anything left, Mr.?" I replied mischievously and he giggled. One of my hands was fixing my hair strands, and the other gripped my phone. "It feels great having you as my girlfriend, I know it's awkward, but I just wanted to tell you", he said.

"Pleasure is all mine, see ya", I blinked my one eye and I walked out. I agreed to step into a relationship. I feel like life is going smoothly and pleasant. I have no idea that the thunder of sorrow and soreness is waiting for me.

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It's been a month since my exams were finished. It looks like Riya has taken on so much stress and relief at the same time due to exams. I'm the one who entered into the relationship and on the other hand, she is the one who entered into the blanket.

"Are you feeling good?" I touched Riya's head to check her temperature. "Yeah, I'm feeling a little better", she replied through her nose. She slid the blanket over her. She is still scrolling on insta, "Why are you using your phone when you aren't well?" I nagged her while pulling her blanket and she sighed in annoyance.

"I'm teaching some manners lesson to some mother fucker", she screamed and it raised my eye brows. "All boys are fuckers, and I don't know why they disturb private people like me while sending some random DM's", she grunted while typing the sh*t to that unknown id.

I got out of bed and turned my heels to the closet. "Who told you to eat 4 cups of ice cream?" I shouted at her while she covered herself under the blanket. "Are you ignoring me"? I screamed when I saw her in a hibernated state. "Nope!!"

"You are better now, so stop hibernating yourself", I grabbed my towel and stepped inside the washroom. After taking a 30-minute hot shower, I stepped out wearing a towel. "Why do you always come out from shower just wearing a towel? Don't you have any shame?" Riya glares at me. She has a croaky voice, which annoyed me.

"Shame, but why? Aren't you a girl, and btw, we both have the same structures, two boobs, two bumps, one mouth, and one hole?" I giggled while she throwing the pillow on me in annoyance. "Bitch!!"

"Are you a fool? Why do you worn one anklet? Where is the other one?" she asked while staring at my legs. She again reminded me of the most painful moment of my life. I stopped moisturizing my legs. "I lost another one", I said in a breathy voice. I opened the closet and dragged on my crop top and booty shorts. "You are such a careless girl", she said and I glared at her.

"I lost it in Delhi, might be as I'm not sure about it", I took my big steps towards bed. "When I realised that I dropped my anklet, I again went there and searched for it, but I didn't find it", I said while caressing my anklet.

This anklet is my mother's last memento, as it belonged to her. I tried to search for the exact pair and design in every jewellery shop, but I didn't find the same. I can't take this anklet off myself, as it's like a blessing from my maa.

"Might be someone has your anklet and fell in love with it", she chuckled with a bright smile, but my gaze cut her off. "Like it happened in movies and romantic novels, where a male lead kept a girl anklet and fell for it", she giggled.

Seriously, her delusions are quite romantic. Now when she's spitting useless facts and it doesn't feel like she was sick earlier. And the background music playing "ve kamleya", asnoor kaur version. I loved to listen to music to stress out my mind.

"So you think that someone has kept my anklet and sleeps every night with it?" I mimicked and she blinked her eyes.

"What nonsense is this? It not happen in real life"

"Stepped out of your fantasy world as it destroyed your mind", I pinned my glares at her and my reality check words dropped her smile. "These types of men are only exists in the fictional world, as real life is too harsh for love and for lovers as well", I said while hibernating myself in the blanket next to her.

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"I'm going home in the next two days", Vikrant words landed me back in this world and I looked at him. "Can you stop using your phone like an addicted person?" he asked, throwing his hand in the air.

"But I'm just scrolling through Instagram," I said gathering all my attention back to my phone. Phone is important to me as my life revolved around it and in today's era, phones are important for everyone. "I'm doing some online projects, that's why I'm quite busy these days", I said while he sipped his coffee.

"Can I ask you something?" he nodded. "Why do you want to join the Indian Army?" I chuckled as I'm curious to know about his dreams. "I don't have any specific reason to join the army, it's like my family legacy, as most of my family members serving for the nation and it's been for three generations", he said. I know about it as gossip girl riya already informed me.

"It's not that my father didn't give us the freedom to choose our profession, he said, do whatever you want to do in life but still, my elder brother has joined the army and he is a major now and my father is really proud of him", Vikrant voice has proud.

It's been the third time I heard about his brother and I don't know why but whenever I heard about him, I end up with got sensations in my whole body. I never stated that his appreciation or anything about it give me goosebumps in my body.

I started to remember that soldier who saved my life in Delhi. But the most strange thing is that both men's have given me the same sensations. This feeling is so annoying.

"You admire your brother, aren't you?" I asked while sipping my coffee and he nodded. "Well, my brother nature is worse than a natural disaster", he said while I pinned my eyes on him. "He has worst anger issues and he doesn't like to talk to anyone in our family", he continued.

He thinks I'm interested in exploring about his angry soldier brother"? I don't give a damn about his anger, I only listen to him because my boyfriend wants to talk about him. I personally don't like such men who behave badly with everyone under the shell of anger issues.

"What the funny thing is about my brother is that he used limited words in a day", he chuckled and I let out my hold laugh. "I think you guys are living with an alien for sure", I was still laughing. "My brother is a nice guy except his anger and short temperament behavior", he defended his brother.

"Stop laughing at my brother, Kashish", he said in annoyance and I shook my head. "He needs someone in his life who can understand him and explore his lovable side as he hides that side behind his anger", he was worried.

I put my hand over his hand, "He will surely find someone who mitigates his loneliness if he is not a bad guy", I assured him.

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The most annoying moment for me is waiting for food, as I'm a foodie. I don't know how long do I need to stay in hostels, as I missed the sweet home warmth so much. I always wonder if somebody would be the definition of a sweet home to me.

Why does it take so long to get food? Rats have almost taken three rounds in my stomach, that's why I hate to be in queue. Today, the serving person and method have again changed. "What the fuck?" I was shocked while sliding myself out of the queue. There were many boys who were standing before me.

I threw my hand in the air. "If I knew about this, then I would have stood in line ahead of the boys", I whispered against Riya's ears, who was standing in front of me. I was steamed up as my stomach started aching. "Yeah, babes, we are already exhausted with jogging and morning exercises and now server checking our patience's level", she grinded her teeth's and I nodded.

We were cursing the server when my phone rang and everyone got startled while rolling up their annoying eyes at me. This time they are again staring at me but the reason is not my beauty, it's my ringtone, "GASOLINA!!".

Why the hell are they staring at me like I'm an alien? Can't I set the ringtone of my choice? After all, I have a fundamental right to do this. I rolled up my annoying glares at them and they turned their eyes away. "Kashish, good morning", I picked up the call, and Baba said.

"Morning, baba", I said in a lower voice. I feel numb when I'm hungry. "What happened sweetheart? Why does your voice seem nervous? He asked while I was listening to him with a frown and angrily face. That's why I love my father, he understands me so well. I always wanted that my life partner to would have qualities like my father. "I'm starving, baba", I cried.

"You should have a roar in your voice as you're my sher baccha", he said and his compliment forced a bright smile on my face. He knows how to bring a smile on my face. I'm a strong girl and stubborn as well.

I always have a rebellious personality, as my father never taught me to fear. He is the definition of a sweet home to me but I rarely get the chance to feel his warmth and love. "Baba, how have you been?" I asked.

"I'm absolutely fine beta and I want to update you that I'll be out of town for some months", This news instantly dropped my smile, as out of town means he is about to leave for mission. Whenever he told me that he is leaving for some months, my heart sank. I love my father and he's my only family. I don't want to lose him. "Kashish, are you there, Baccha?" he asked while I remained silent and feared at the same time.

"When will you come, Baba?" I murmured while my voice has anxiousness. "I'll be come soon, beta, don't be scared, your baba has superpowers", he giggled and it's again forced a smile on my sad face. When I was little, I always used to say to everyone that "my baba has superpowers", and he knew about that. "Baba, I'm going to Manikaran for my orientation programme", I said.

Riya brought food for me as well while I was sitting on chair talking to my father. "Good, do your best at training, ok, beta, I love you, bye", he said while Riya flicked her eyes to know the matter as tears were dripping from my eyes. "Bye, baba, I love you too", I hung up and wiped my tears. "Are you ok, sweetie? What happened?"

"I'm ok, it was baba's call that emotional me", I said and dragged the plate to me as I'm hungry too. "You don't even thanked me for this, bitch", Riya glares at me while I gulped idli bites.

I shook my head to thank her. "Hunhh, you are a bitch", she sighed, annoyed while my concentration was on food.

Manikaran trip is going to be the most important and intriguing part of my life. The person who is in my delusion, as I have heard about him many times, is finally will be front of me. The angry men, or, I say grumpy handsome men, is about to get entangled with me.

would it affect my life?

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