RANVIJAY

Craving for someone you barely know or who you have never seen is an injury to your health. It feels like thirsty men are searching for one drop of love in the desert that will quench their thirst.

It feels amazing to yearn for her every moment. I never felt a peaceful moment in my entire life, but the past six months have been precious moments of my life. Earlier, I wished that I could see her, but now I crave her meet, her solace, and her ocean eyes.

"Should I try to find you"? I said with a breathy voice. I placed the anklet next to mine on the bed. "Whenever I touch you, it feels like I'm touching delicate daisy", I said while caressing her anklet through my rough lips. my rough lips would be surely hurt her.

"I think I need to visit Delhi", I got up and sat on the bed while bending my right leg. My mind still tries to figure out what the right thing to do is. Ranvijay, it's better to search for her rather than die every moment by craving for her. I got down from bed and picked up my laptop from the corner study table.

I went back to bed while the thunderstorm was roaring outside. "It looks like rain is going to happen, fuck", I sighed in annoyance. I never liked the rain, as getting wet in salty water makes me grumpy. I signed up for laptop and am waiting for wifi to get connected.

"Fucking annoying, the rain is the cause of every problem", The stressed veins popped up on my forehead. It is so easy for me to get irritated. "Please don't check my patience", I said while barely pressing my eyes. After taking fucking 15 minutes, I'm finally connected to make my trip website.

I booked a flight ticket from Pune to Delhi in mid of the night. What a ass-hole I'm. People might be sleeping peacefully at this hour, and I'm fucking restlessly trying to find the way to get again entangled with an unknown blue-eyed girl.

"Good night, Raaje, take care of myself", I smirked while placing my face near her anklet. "I can take care of the whole nation, but I don't know why I craved your concern for me", I said in a low breath. I don't want anyone to hear our conversation. "Keep it secret"

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I don't share the perfect bond with my father, my heart is filled with hatred for him. He tried so hard to amend the relationship with me, but I don't have such an intention. First he abandoned me in childhood, and now I abandoned him.

I can say that I never looked at my father after my mother's death. He thinks my stubbornness and anger towards him are unnecessary, and according to me, he shouldn't betray my mother just for her best friend. My mother was everything to me, and he didn't betray her, he betrayed me as well.

I stepped down from the stairs while completely ignoring my father, who was walking towards me, as I didn't want to spoil my mood. "Ranvijay beta", he said but I didn't give a damn to his words and walked out of his face.

"Mousi (aunt), I'm going somewhere for two days", I pinned my eyes to her, who was standing near the kitchen. She was preparing breakfast. I took some steps towards the hall when a male voice chuckled from my right side. "What's up, Bhai? How you have been?"

Akash asked while sipping his green tea. He only likes to have green tea from her beloved wife, he is a mad lover. Apart from this, he is my younger cousin and an IPS officer by profession. His behaviour is unlike mine. He is a well-behaved human, after all he was raised by my mousi (aunt) with her immense love.

"I'm fine", I replied while hugging him.

"Congratulations, Bhai, for Param Vir Chakra", he chuckled. His eyes had immense proud of me. "How is it feels to have an honor?" he paused while I pinned my eyes on him. "I always feel great when I crushed terrorist's heads with my hands", I smirked while tapping his shoulder.

I'm a very aggressive and ruthless PARA SF in my battalion. Till now, I have crushed countless terrorists' heads. My superiors have given me the title of daredevil, as they assume that I'm more ruthless than a terrorist. The daredevil, solider who cannot die.

"Yeah, bhai, you're the best officer, and I'm proud of you", he exclaimed with joy while my so-called father stood at the corner. I can sense that he is yearning for my attention, exactly the same way I felt in my childhood when he ignored me. My ignorance is tit for tat.

"Ranvijay, don't you want to hug me? After all, it's been a while", he cried, and his words instantly popped up anger in my face. "Why, don't you know that we are army officers and we spend many days on the battlefield? But why am I explaining to you that after all, we have so many army officers in our family", I replied in annoyance.

Akash was flickering his eyes simultaneously at us. His facial expression is like World War III is going to happen soon at the moment. The intensity of my voice had gathered the attention of all family members.

"I'm aware of the fact, beta, but still, I'm your father, and I and your mother missed you so much", he said while shifting his eyes to her beloved wife, and it's enough to make me a bad person again. "She is your wife, not my mother", I corrected him. "So stop tieing the relationship between us", I said.

The fire of anger in the eyes will surely burn the whole hall. I pinned my glares to the family photo where all the men's of our family presented in service uniform except me.

"Beta, you..", he paused as I glared at him.

"Beta, so you remembered that you have a son?" My voice has wrath. He stares at me with pity eyes, but sorry, it doesn't melt my heart. "Stop worrying about me, I can take care of myself", I slammed while tugging my hands into my pocket. She again started crying in front of my father. "She started again", I smirked at her while seeing her big crocodile tears.

"I'm getting late please excuse me", I said while flashing my watch at my face. I was just fed up with the nuisance, so I picked up my bag and walked out of there.

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"I will reach UNA in the next two days", I said to Arjun while sitting in the cab. I'm on my way to my home in Pune after spending two days in Delhi. The cab stopped making me look outside the window. Two annoying things are happening at the moment rain and traffic jam. The roads are full of cars, making me sigh.

I looked back inside the cab when a notification popped up on my phone. When the initials caught my attention, I immediately opened the notification.

The terrifying bomb blast took place in Mumbai yesterday. 21 people are under treatment who suffered burn injuries, and 50 died immediately on the spot. The incident terrified the people of Mumbai. The Mumbai police are still not sure about the attacker, but rumours are everywhere that it's Turkish mafia TAMRAZ DAGESTANI who is behind the conspiracy. The matter is sensitive and will soon be handed over to the army to take necessary action.

I read the full article and the news boiled up my blood. The Indian Army will soon grip your fucking neck, Tamraz. And I wish I would have the chance to dissect your fucking body parts. I hate terrorism, and I hate terrorists. I threw my phone on the seat while pressing my angry veins on my forehead.

It took me 3 hours to reach home. It was 1 o'clock at night and it might not be a good idea to ring the doorbell. I was walking towards the door when someone speedily approached me. "What's up, Ronny?" I chuckled. Ronny is a German shepherd-breed dog. My soldier family has immense love for dogs.

Ronny leaned straight on me while licking my hand. "Are you watching people carefully or not?" I asked in a rude tone while petting his head, and he nodded. Animals are more responsible and trustworthy than humans. Animals' presence never annoys me. "Good night, stay alert", I said as I walked inside the home.

I was thirsty, so I walked into the kitchen to have some water when some rattling sounds echoed in my ears. I turned my neck outside to check out. I quietly walked out of the kitchen and took some steps to the entrance, where someone was trying to enter the house secretly.

"Saavi"

She freezed herself after hearing my voice. It looks like she is returning from a big party. "Bhai!!", she stammered. She turned herself while her puppy eyes gazed at me. She was holding heels in both hands. "Baccha, why are you entering like a thief?" I tugged my hands into my pocket. "Bhai, I was at... I was at the party", she stammered.

All of my cousins have some kind of fear of me. I never thought that my cousins saw me as devil. Saavi is the youngest of the cousins. She is the only sister we have, as the Karmarkar family's third generation has only men.

"Late night party, hahh", I said in a cold tone. She took big steps towards me. "I was supposed to come early, but I'm late because of fu*k ra..", she paused her tongue. "Sorry because of stupid rain, bhai, I swear", she sneezed while narrowing her eyes. My eyes paused at her, and it made her gulp her saliva.

"Bhai, please don't be angry at me, please", she begged while I rolled up my eyes to watch the wall. She was continuously sneezes as the cold catches her.

"Okay, stop bothering me, go to the room, and I'll be there in a few minutes", I said and she wided her eyes. "But why, bhai, don't you scolded me enough today?" she paused as I glared at her. "Go now," I said and she immediately left for her room.

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"May I come in?" I asked in a rough tone, which broke the gaze of Saavi, who was sitting on her bed. She is using her phone and smiling weirdly. "Yeah, sure bhai, you don't need to ask", she chuckled while throwing her phone on the bed.

I took seven steps until I reached her bed. "Take the medicine and drink this turmeric milk", I extended my hand to her. She glares at the medicine like I gave her venom. "Why are you giving so much unwanted looks to medicine?" She glares at me. "Bhai, it has a bitter taste", she again sneezed.

"Medicine is always bitter in taste", I sat opposite her. "Bhai, but", I cut her off, "Don't make excuses, take the medicine as it's already late", I said while she paused her annoying glares at me. She gulped the whole glass in one shot. "Good girl"

"Bhai, I have a terrible headache, Will you please massage my head?" I nodded, and she slid herself into the blanket. "Bhai, you know that I'm enjoying my college days, it's been a fun", she chuckled. "And what about studies?"

"I performed well in my first semester", she said. "Bhai, stop it, I feel better now", she paused my hand. "That's why you're my favourite bhai, among all brothers", she said and her appreciation forced a faint smile on my face.

"What about your other brothers? Aren't they nice with you?"

"It's not like that, bhai, I mean Akash bhai is always busy like you, Vikrant bhai is in Bangalore and he visited home twice in a year, Vikram is younger than me and cunning as well."

"You're too sweet, bhai, even though I'm feared by you", she said while my eyes were pinned to the wall. "But I never said anything to you, bacche", I rolled up my eyes at her, and I paused. She is sleeping like a princess. I caressed her forehead and walked out from the room.

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It was 9 p.m., and my whole family was gathered together. I was standing on the balcony while my eyes fell on the hall. "What's meera's family doing here?" I sighed. I really have no idea what is going to happen in the next moment. I turned my heels to the staircase and stepped down.

"There is Ranvijay; everyone attention please, I want to tell you something", dad chuckled while everyone started staring at me. My gut feelings getting heightened, and it feels like something is going to happen beyond my wishes. I clenched my jaw in tension. ""Bhagyashree and I decided that we should get Ranvijay and Meera married.

The news immediately pushed me into deep shock. I was staring at my dad, who was laughing with his beloved wife. My face becomes pale with the news, as I don't want to marry anyone. Everyone presented in the hall is happy, except me.

"Meera, do you have any objections to the decision?" dad asked her while my glares shifted from dad to meera. She nodded her head in yes with the brightest smile she could have. "What the fuck, meera?" I sighed in disappointment.

I know Meera from my childhood and she is my friend. Her father and my father are best friends. My father likes Meera, but I never imagined that he was going to pair her with me. "I have an objection", I said in my sharp rude tone which I rarely used. Everyone started staring at me. My words instantly dropped the smile of everyone.

"I don't want to marry her and I don't understand why the fuck didn't anybody take my permission to make a decision about me", I said in annoyance. Kaki and meera mother gasped, not to mention that meera mother's heart came to her mouth.

"Ranvijay, beta, try to understand..." Dad said but I cut him off, "I didn't ask to you", I grunted while he paused on his words. "Ranvijay, don't be angry, all we want is that you should get married?" Dadi said to me.

"But, didn't I said to everyone that I'm not interested in fucking marriage?" I said in frustration, "and meera she is my friend, how can I marry her?"My words made meera sigh. "I say no to this marriage", I turned my heels to the staircase.

"Don't be ridiculous, Ranvijay, as you are insulting meera and her family as well", dad said. "She is going to be your wife at any cost", I paused on my steps. "Digvijay", Bhagyashree asked as everyone was stunned with a dad tone. When he used this harsh tone it seems like I'm very much like him.

"Your mother wanted that you should be a handsome groom, if she were alive today, she would surely make you ready with her own hands", he said while my mother's wish faded away my anger for a few seconds. "And what's wrong with getting married to Meera? She is young, beautiful, and successful", dad said.

"Right Ranvijay and soon you're turned into 30 and it's right for you to get married before it's too late", I looked at Kaki, giving her a stay out of it glare. "Why can't you shut your mouth, kaki?" I said and walked towards the staircase leading to my room.

"Ranvijay", I paused on my steps, and my back still faces them. "Forget it, I don't care, as I'm not going to do this, don't bother me again", I said and went to my room. I opened the room and closed it immediately after stepping inside. "Everyone has gone mad", I picked up the whisky bottle and gulped it.

"I can't believe, they are using my maa to get me married", I said while gulping two three-shot whiskies. It is weird, but only alcohol help me to calm down because it numbs my brain cells. I was supposed to be going tomorrow, but the whole incident made me compelled to leave the house immediately.

"Ranvijay", it was mousi. "If you guys are planning to blackmail me in the name of my mother, there is no way I'm going to fall for your trap", I said while gulping one more shot. "Ranvijay, I want to talk to you please open the door, beta", she requested, and I opened the door.

She stepped inside the room, "put this glass aside and listen to me", She sat me down on the bed and sat opposite me. "Ranvijay, sometimes we are unable to take some decisions in our lives; marriage is one of them", she caressed my head while my face is leaned to the floor. "Don't your parents have the right to choose a life partner for you?" she said.

"Nope, if he is asking for parental rights, then he needs to take parental responsibilities as well, and he didn't take that", I grinded my teeth. "Marriage can't make me the happiest person, as that person died inside me long ago", I growled. The longer I stay here, the more I get annoyed and angry for sure.

I stood up and took some steps to the closet. "It's better to leave this house, as I'm feeling suffocated here", I said. "Ranvijay, it's your mother's last wish..." I paused my hand and frozen at my place. "She said to me..."

Ranvijay loves me insanely Manju, if I die someday, he will be all alone. Promise to me that if something happened to me, please take care of my son like your own son. When he became a man, search a beautiful girl who would make him believe in love. Please don't ever leave him alone.

Tears rolled up from my eyes as my mother's last words made me emotional. I loved my mother insanely, there is no doubt. Mousi caressed my back, "We are not villains in your life, beta, all we want is you to be happy", she said and I immediately wiped my tears as I don't wanted to cry in front of her.

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It's been a month since I posted to UNA (Himachal Pradesh). It's been a month since I said yes to Meera's marriage proposal. Who thought that I would say yes to marriage? But it was my mother's last wish, and I honour her wish more than my life. I've known Meera since childhood, but we don't often meet as my profession is hard.

It's better to marry a known girl. But if my fate has been tied to Meera, then why did I fall for that anklet girl? I tried to search for her in Delhi, but I didn't get anything about her. All I have is her fragrance and her anklet.

It's just like I was in a sweet dream for six months and when I wake up the dream has been shattered. I'm was feeling immense pain in my heart when the reality hit me that I can't get her. I wish I could have held you that day when we first met.

If I had known at that time that you were going to be my deep desire, I swear I would grip you tightly in my arms and never let you go away from me. But now it seems like we never meant to each other. I want to fade away your memories, but it's hard for me.

I was trying so hard each day to get over you, but your love is like a swamp for me. The harder I try to get over it, the deeper I drown in it. Ranvijay, as you are getting married to Meera and you aren't supposed to think about her, it's wrong. That's why I kept her anklet with my mother belonging as throwing it away from me was beyond my control.

I tried to forget you from past one month, but you are still alive in my mind. This is madness. why can't I stop myself from falling in love with her, even though I know I will never meet her in my life?

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I and Arjun are transferred to Manikaran to work with regular troops for one month. It is part of our training. We are on our way to the Manikaran camps. The roads of Manikaran are pathetic. It is fucking annoying to drive a Jeep on these roads, which have so many holes.

"Can't you drive slowly?" I said rolling my eyes at Arjun who was driving. "Why aren't you enjoying the ride on fucking holes?" he giggled before I looked outside the window. I don't know when the guy is sitting next to me will be serious about his life.

"Stop the Jeep, now?"

He stopped the jeep at the side of the road. I got down from the Jeep. What the pleasant weather kullu has is perfectly opposite to my life. I spread my arms just to feel the peace. "Ranvijay, don't you want tea?" Arjun said, making me roll my eyes and I nodded.

I opened my eyes and took out the cigarette. Arjun brought the tea for me. "Here, take it", I glares at him while taking my tea. "Smoking and tea is a deadly combination, and you are enjoying the combo alone", he chuckled and I pinned my annoyed glares at him. Why can't he normally ask for the cigarette?

"I'm getting married, Arjun," he spitted his tea. "Really, I can't believe this", his eyes widened. He is still trying to digest the fact that I'm getting married. "Finally you get the anklet girl, don't you?" I took a deep breath. "Come on, tell me, where did you find her?" he giggled.

"I'm not getting married to her, its meera-my would be wife", I said in a cold tone. "What"?

"But you love her, don't you?" he was shocked, "Why did you say yes to Meera?" he asked. I fell in love with her and now I trying so hard to forget her. "Destiny, I thought I could only love her and she is in my fate, but I was wrong", I said. Fate was always cruel to me, it doesn't gave me what I want.

"Come on, let's go", I turned my heels to Jeep and got sited inside. My eyes were pinned to the trees passing by. I turned my gaze back into the Jeep. "What's happening there?" Arjun said. His words make me roll my eyes to the Jeep direction. Some guys on the road try to stop our Jeep. "Arjun, stop it," he immediately applied the brakes.

I got down from the Jeep while the girl rashly came to me. "Sir, please help", she gasped and she was injured as well. "Relax, we'll help you, tell me what's exactly happening here", I asked.

"Sir, we met with a horrible accident, we all got injured and the driver is still in the bus", she gasped. She was terrified by the accident. I rolled up my eyes at the bus that was stuck on the edge of the mountain. Arjun immediately rushed towards the bus to check on the driver. "Ok, you just relaxed, we will rescue all of you, ok", I assured her and I let her sit in the jeep.

"How many passengers were in the bus?" I asked. "We are around 10 students, sir, and one of our friends is hanging in a gulf", she pointed out in the mountains. "Earlier, we were able to hear her sobs, but now her sound has faded away. Please save her, sir", she said.

I picked up the ropes from the Jeep and immediately ran towards the edge of the mountain. "Kashish, can you hear us, Kashish?" Her name is Kashish. Her friend repeatedly took her name. Kashish, this is the first time I heard this name and I don't know why I'm getting restless.

I got down while wrapping rope around my waist. My eyes were searching for her when suddenly she caught my attention. Her grip on the twig was getting loose. I was speed myself up to reach her. She slipped from the twig and was about to fall into the gulf, but somehow I managed to save her.

I gripped her waist and pulled her to my chest. "Are you okay, Kashish?" I murmured near her earlobes. She is shivering in fear as she digging her nails into my hand. "Don't be scared, you're in my grip and I won't lose you", I said in a breathy voice.

She turned her eyes to me. When I pinned my eyes to her, I was shocked. "Her eyes", I paused my glares at her. I have seen these eyes before. Her eyes are exactly the same as the owner of the anklet. Is that really you? But how is it possible?

My heart started beating insanely, as if I could die with my own heartbeats. "Please don't leave me, I don't want to die", she cried while my eyes were still gazing at her. "I'm here no one could harm you", I replied while my beard caressed her cheeks.

We both gaze at each other until she got unconscious. She was in my grip while I was still confused between the both girls.

did i get her ? i don't know

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COCO - will ranvijay recognized kashish ?

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